Waiting by Sue Kosharek
My life has been in transition for about 2 1/2 years now.
A very abbreviated explanation is: empty nest. With the majority of the past 20 years of my life spent raising and homeschooling children, this is a major change for me. I had a plan.
Before children, I was a Registered Dietitian in private practice. I had some significant adjustments in giving that up, but I got thru it. As an outlet, I started creating all kinds of art. I had a 10 year plan, so that when the kids left, I would ease into a new path. It was a good plan.
I’m not sure what happened. I was blindsided by the grief I experienced when they started leaving. For awhile I didn’t want anything to do with art. Slowly I started creating again; but it was obvious my 10 year plan wasn’t going to work. I had no idea of what I might want to next. I prayed for guidance. I prayed for direction. I prayed for a clue. I prayed and prayed.
The message I kept getting (sometimes in painful ways) was “It’s time to wait”. Waiting became my constant companion. I learned that waiting doesn’t mean doing nothing, or that nothing is happening. Sometimes it means that the timing isn’t right, the people you are going to work with aren’t ready, you need time to recharge or heal, you have another lesson to learn. It could mean many things. But it doesn’t mean I’m being punished, or that I’ve done something wrong, or that I will have to wait forever……
So as I wait, I am open to receive the blessings of the universe. Sometimes I imagine these blessings showering down on me, like drops of golden light. I also learn from the eagle, who waits for the moment. Not running around trying to make things happen, or feeling guilty for waiting.